ok, this s sequence to my previous journal.
well, i went to gym just now and i saw 'her' again.My hear kinda beat faster than the normal rate. I just look straight and pretend i didn't see her again..
!! and i regretted and i don't know why i keep on doing that! so frustrated at myself...*bang head on wall* jk...haven't bleed yet..
anyway, i sat on the chair with dumbell on my legs and she was training someone and was just nearby and ask me whether i was okay or not and i just smile and shake my head and trying to mumble hi in the mean time...
gosh, what am i doing? superwoman?
anyway, she was stretching her customers leg and i just sat there and look at her. but too bad she didn't look back. so, to avoid any mysterious stares or misunderstand i walk away.
when i was going to go home. normal, wait for my mom come and fetch me. i just chatted with my friends working there. and they just started work there and they're guys. i just ask him about how his work..and somehow it leads to the girl i mention earlier.
she is malay. but she's also a christian. at that time, in the back of my head i thought no hope already i might just as well forget about it. then he told me that she's a lesbian. my heart skip. but he added she has a girlfriend and showed me. her girlfriend is working there in the receptionist counter obviously, her girlfriend is beautiful compare to me.
for one time, i hate being so tomboyish..
from today onwards, i'll try and be a girly girl and be pretty...
but how can i? i've got flesh plus muscles all over me...
sigh...
what a day!!