OMG!!! I set the DVR to record the 20/20 special on trans teens and my mom found it. Here's how it went"
Mom: "What? Why's it recording 20/20?"
Me: "I put that mom"
Mom: *pushes info and reads it's about children living as the opposite sex* "What?" *looks at me strangely*
Me: Mom, I'm not trans *laughs at the irony of me wearing a boy shirt and shoes on a daily basis, which includes today*
Mom: "So, what, are you gay?"
Me: *smiles* "Yeah"
Me: "Yeah, I'm gay mum"
Mom: "Oh, I honestly don't believe that, you're just confused"
Me:*quiet and hurt*
We watched some of 20/20 together. It was a very emotional one. But, I think I heard my mom crying/sniffling. What I don't know if it was about me or the 20/20, or both? I dunno. But she says she HONESTLY doesn't believe me.
Oh gosh, just right now she came down. She kissed me on the forehead and told me, "My poor confused daughter". What's wrong with me?! Am I really confused? Am I really not gay? People say that others know more about you than you know of yourself, so can she be right? I really do believe I'm gay, but what if they are right?
I want to cry. I'm so confused. So lost :(
UPDATE: My younger brother that i told yesterday came and asked me if I was being serious. I said yes. He says he thinks I'm confused, and that this isn't a funny joke. What's wrong with me?!