so i finally ended things with my ex best friend/girl who was dating a guy but still wanted to get with me.... as dana on the l word put it so well "are you trying to have your cake and eat your pussy too?" basically she got mad at me but i don't really care.... i wasn't going to do that to her boyfriend or to myself... not cool....

speaking of the l word.... i have the whole family addicted.... my moms and even my little sister (who is straight as can be) love the show..... my obsession with katherine moennig grows daily.... i think she might possibly be the most gorgeous woman ever..... she is just so... fucking hot i guess.... she just exudes sex to me..... so hot....

while on the topic of hot girls.... i was at the gym yesterday and the local travel fastpitch team was in hitting.... the team's catcher was up there in the katherine moennig category... no joke... my friend and i couldn't keep our eyes off of her.... of course i had to myspace stalk her later.... supposedly she's straight... god damn it!!!! fastpitch catcher... check... drives a HUGE F-350... check.... has a dog... check.... all the signs were there... ugh....

while i'm just rambling..... in ap psych we were having this really indepth conversation about sex on monday and of course homosexuality came up... my teacher tried to convince me that only 2% of the population was gay... WHAT???? he said that because i'm a competitive soccer player and i live in seattle my numbers were pretty skewed.... okay.... but still... 2%.... so low.... and then he goes on to tell all of us that if we want to we should be able to get counseling for unwanted homosexual feelings..... now, don't get me wrong... i love this guy.... great teacher.... but come on.... i was really pretty offended by some of his statements.... and it takes quite a bit to get me offended usually.... ugh.... and to make it worse my crush was sitting right next to me (half asleep but still...) basically she is a TOTAL closet case who is obviously gay... just trust me... but still hasn't come out... and here is a teacher who we all respect because usually he really knows his shit... but here she is being told homosexuality can be cured... WHAT? you want to fuck with someone's head? there's a great way to do it....

day of silence on wednesday... which is pretty fucked up because we have WASL (state assesment testing)... which means the day is only 2.5 hours long... i will still be very vocal about my support for the event but i've decided to not be silent this year.... when i think about it i find it a pretty big oxymoron... for 17 years i was silent about my sexual orientation... no more of that... no thank you.... i understand the idea behind it but it definitely isn't for me... not at all...

anyway... that's enough rambling...

good night everyone... hope this week is a good one :)