So Monday and Tuesday was my school's overnight retreat. That was a lot of fun, you see it was meditation and bonding time all day with a heated discussion of love and/or sex in the evening , followed by a night of sneaking around the woods in sleepover-esue manner. The next day we eat a big breakfast, discuss the fall out of the discussion in a drum circle like setting for a couple of hours.

So during the evening discussion, people started to talk about when they were raped and/or molested. One girl made a bad move at one of the other girls by saying, "You don't wear skirts. You act like a guy. You play softball and every other sport under the sun. You were molested. I'm surprise, you have a boyfriend if anything you should be a dyke." Well the girl looked like she was going to cry even more from that comment.

So I stood up and said, "Well I don't do those things, I'm gay." Next thing I know all the girls gasp...apparently my class didn't know it but I am out to the juniors to the the frosh. hahahaha and I thought girls talk.

So the girl who made the bad comment says, "Well honey it's because you are ugly and boys don't give pity dates. But anyways you won't have to worry about getting beaten by any guys or raped. "

The thing was, I was beaten by a guy. My dad use to beat crap out of me as a little kid because he was angry and just last summer a boy shot me because I wouldn't say yes to his proposal of marriage. I told that to the girl and once again all the girls were shocked and the girl who was making the comments finally shut upped. Then the conversation turned to all the girls who got beaten by their fathers and abusive relationships, now the school wants to do more about stuff like that which is good.

But the fall out was, "oh catherine you're so brave" to "Oh catherine, God gives you these hardships because he thinks you can handle it"

Next thing I know today, "Catherine's gay" was the one thing to go through the rumor mill to get the response, "Um...so who cares, tells me when she starts dating her best friend. They would be cute together."

Now my best friend who happens to be the girl I am crazy about is acting kind of awkward with me. but well that happens whenever kids start saying we should be together.