Day of Silence, period, random stuff

1 April, 2007 - 3:08am — Toph

There are some things I've been wanting to talk about just for the heck of it. Apparently, I like to ramble on, even in comments (sorry). So, here's what I've been keeping in:

1.) Period: the monthly visitor
Yeah, every girl has it.....or not. I've had my period ONCE, then it never came back. That was a year and a half ago. Maybe that's why I'm angered for being told to do things because I'm a girl, when the thing that makes me a girl doesn't really exist. I can't bear children, so I'm just a human that is basically useless because the main purpose of everyone (scientifically) is mainly to pass on our genes. I'm not sad that I don't have my period; I actually feel lucky. Maybe the absence of my period makes me feel more masculine?

2.) Hamster
I got a hamster! My mom is convinced he's a rat through. Oh well, he's small and cute, and I like him :D

3.) Prom
Tickets are now being sold, and I've decided I'm not going. I wouldn't dare go alone because I basically don't have friends at school, and my chance to get a date has been terminated. Sucks. Oh well.

4.) Religion
I've had the need to feel close to God, but I'm reluctant. Like, what if there is a heaven, and I'm stuck in hell for not believing in God? I want to believe to be saved, but isn't that shallow? Just kinda like, "Hey God, I'm going to worship you and pray to you for the mere sake of saving my ass. " and I won't be saved anyway because I'm not really believing and worshiping. I'll just be putting a raft on my boat just in case i need it....if that makes sense.

5.) GSA
Students/acquaintances asked me to help them start the school GSA. I talked to the counselor and she wants me to organize it, since I am older and better at presenting facts and such. Can you say pressure? Well, lazy ass me has been putting it off, so now I have a month and a half to convince our principal and school to let us have a GSA. Oh, gosh, I hope I don't screw this up.

6.) DAY OF SILENCE!
I'm so excited about it! This will be my first year participating (if I'm allowed). I'm gonna have to go to the counselor and talk to her about it to see if I can talk to the principal to get it approved. I've been doing research and I'm getting ready to write my presentation. Oh, I hope it works!

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2 April, 2007 - 12:38am — -Ruby-

hmmm...

You're 18, you've gotten your period once, and it hasn't come back in over a year? That's not healthy- a girl your age should be menstruating regularly. An absence of periods may signify other health issues, or cause serious problems if not dealt with. If you haven't talked to your doctor about this yet, please do. You may have PCOS (polycystic ovary syndrome) which prevents women from menstruating, it can make you really sick or even get cancer in certain female organs.
I know you hate getting your period, but it's really important to take your reproductive health seriously. I have hormonal issues which make me not get my period regularly, and I have friends who take medications because they have extremely painful periods or other problems with their "monthly visitor". Bleeding from between our legs is not fun for anyone, but thats just one of the sucky things about being female that we all have to deal with. Good luck, keep taking care of yourself, and you'll be fine.
:o)

2 April, 2007 - 1:34am — Toph

I understand your concern

I understand your concern and appreciate it, but I have talked to my doctor about it. She believes that my period is caused by a hormonal imbalance in my body; I have higher testosterone levels than estrogen. She said I could develop osteoporosis at an early age because of it, but besides that she doesn't see any other problems. That's a scary thought, but I the time I had my period I really, really hated it. I got so sick that I had to miss school. My female friends I told said I was just being a weenie, but it was horrible. I got really pale and felt queasy and I couldn't focus on anything. I don't know how you girls handle it, but you must be tough to go through that once a month. Anyway, next time I go to my doctor I'll ask again just in case. Thanks.

~May the spirits guide your every move...to assure you please her in all the right places XD

3 April, 2007 - 8:43am — 808Chik

wow. O_O i wish i never had

wow. O_O i wish i never had my period. but mine is kinda like when you first got yours...i get pale, queasy, and the pain is really unbearable. i had to get prescribed stronger pills just to ease the pain...yea it was that bad.but you should get checked though...just in case :)

Aw a hamster...i want a pet but in a way i don't lol. whatcha name it? oOo HAMTARO haha. well i tried the whole church-going thing and that didn't work out too well...as long as i believe and pray when i can i think that i'm fine. if it works for you then...go for it!

PROM!!!!!! heeyy. i could be your date. didn't even ask me :(
i feel sad. *POUT POUT POUT* ;D...isn't it senior prom? you can't miss that...i'll tell you what i told my best friend in Vegas..."I'll DRAG MY ASS TO VEGAS IF I HAVE TO IN ORDER FOR YOU TO GO TO PROM" (but you can replace Vegas with where you live)

ok. i got the period, hamster, prom, religion...and now GSA and DOS. well you kinda get my thoughts on DOS from my comment on the other post, so that's practically done..now GSA.

i'm in one. i'm practically the only one that did a lot of things and i'm about to give up 'cause including myself...we have like 3 regulars (on a good day) and that's below the required limit...so sad. i went to meetings and such, but i guess there's not much participation. so idk what to do.

you. on the other hand. can do this!! don't think negative....think positive and do it :) i have faith that you can start a GSA and make it work. best of luck to you :D

"i am who i am, so don't judge me for being myself"