I am employing the 24 hour rule. ...with great difficulty. I'm litterally shaking as I type this. And...I don't even know what I'm supposed to be feeling here. I've cried until my head ached. I've been furious. I think, now, I'm just confused and scared. I don't want to throw away an eight year friendship over something that I don't even understand. And I know I'm probably overdramatizing the situation -- my oppoligies for two posts in one night -- but it strikes a little deep when a close and trusted friend says that I've betrayed her, that it may have been her fault for ever trusting me in the first place, etc. and I don't even understand what I've done. I'm not trying to come off as the victum here (she made that very clear in a comment on my lj post from earlier this evening, that I am not the victum), I'm just trying to figure things out and make an attempt to fix them. Obviously, I've done something with such magnitude as to utterly destroy a friendship of years. One would think I'd be smart enough to figure out what that action was.