..retarded. Genius lyrics.

I have a crush on a girl. It's a stupid crush, not in a I-know-she's-straight way but in a I-like-you-but-you-don't-know-who-I-am way. I tend to have a lot of those. Ok so she's a bartender and I think she's queer.. it's likely, she sends very strong signals to my gaydar. You'd think I'd have at least ordered a drink from her a few times.. not even. I dreamily watch her when she comes to collect the empty glasses and empty the ash trays, like a geeky 14 year old boy would look out for the untouchable girl walking through the halls in high school. It's pretty pathetic really. Why does she have to be so gorgeous? Sometimes I think my mind got bored and decided to just make me obsess over something to keep me entertained. The first time I saw her, she came and stood right next to me and I didn't feel anything really. Now I can't go there without checking the bar to see if she is working on the night, then my mind does funny twisted things like convince me that she actually notices me. Stupid stupid. The bands aren't even that good, seeing her cute smile is worth going though.