OMFG!

I said I'd take care of my niece while her mom went to a make-up party or whatever the hell it is, but what she didn't tell me was she'd be gone for 3 fucking hours!!!!

The baby was fine at first and fell asleep. But I got up to lay her down so I can eat, but she didn't like that. She started screaming, and screaming, and screaming! She just wouldn't stop for a whole half hour! Nothing but screams of a brat! So, she cried herself to sleep for about 20 minutes, but she woke up screaming again! I don't even know what I did, she just woke up screaming. I tried everything I knew to do to queit a baby: feed, change, play, etc, but it didin't work. Grr.

I have to study for my AP Lit test. I enjoyed the book, but I don't think I can write a deep analytical 2 page paper in one hour for my test tomorrow. Not now that I didn't have those precious hours to read the sparknotes for the explanation of symbols and motifs present in the novel. OMFG, I'm so fucking stressed out!

I swear I wanted to throw that kid to the wall to shut it up, but I know it's not my kid to kill. That's why I don't want kids. Because I know the heartless demon I am. I've had dreams of me having kids and in every single one I tried to kill them. And I didn't even feel bad about it.

She's still here crying. Her mom came but left. I have no idea where the hell she is. I'm listening to my iPod to block out the screams of the baby. Luckily, my parents are here to watch the brat.

She's not my mistake to be responsible for. I'm not the one that got pregnant before I even graduated. I'm not the one that got married while 4 months pregnant.

If anyone did bother hearing my complaints, thanks. I'm just so mad and stressed out now. I can't take this. I can't handle babysitting again because I'm scared I'll hurt my 3 month old niece, but they've heard my dreams and how I don't want children, so why do they leave me alone with a spoiled brat?

What got me most angry was that the mother of the baby was laughing at me saying, "Ha, what's wrong?"

WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU THINK IS WRONG?!!!

Sorry, still angry. Sorry for the rant.

Now I have to study for the test I'll fail...