
Well, it's that time again. That time in my life when the defining line of my sexuality fades and it's just a fuzzy mess. I've noticed it happens to me periodically. I feel strongly for girls emotionally and sexually, but I feel for boys emotionally. I'll think a boy is attractive, but as long as I don't think about the horror that hides in his pants (no offense boys). It's just that I really don't find a sexual relationship with a boy appealing. Just emotional.
But I've noticed that sometimes my sexuality changes. Usually once a year it'll do that to me. I've read that sexuality is not set in stone and does seem to change, but for me it's so odd. Like, I remember last year I was strongly attracted to boys for a couple of months. Then I snapped back and went all gaga over girls again. But recently, I haven't been turned on my anyone. It's just like, "Eh, whatever." I like a girl, but no sexual interest. With no one. I know I'll snap back to wanting a girl all over me, but I don't know how long until then.
Maybe this happens because I get very busy and stressed out? I've been catching up with a lot of make-up homework and reading because I was sick for a week. I've been doing a lot of scholarships and I've come down with a bad case of senioritis (that being too anxious to graduate that you just start to slack off majorly in your classes.)
But whatever is wrong with my sexuality transitions, it annoys the crap out of me! I miss getting all excited and *cough*hornyasahorse *cough* about girls the way I used to.
Hm, is this normal?
Comments
I know you mean about being
I know you mean about being attracted to someone (normally a boy) but in a non-sexual way. This might help if you like to be able to give names to feelings http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Affectional_orientation
Sexual interest does wax and wane depending on what's going on in your life. That's completely normal. The trouble is if your queer you get so used to questioning and fine tuning your own emotions and attractions while your trying to work out whatever the hell is going on with your sexuality, that it's easy to obsess over the details. Sexuality is a fuzzy mess for most people, most of the time, the only difference is you've trained yourself to pay acute detail to its fluctuations, while most people just drown it out.