I have just recently discovered that I don't give a fuck if random people in my school know I'm bi. I mean, people like the ones in my physics and math classes last semester, the regular people that I've never met before in my life. I mean, my crush was in my physics class and I certainly came out to her, and I wouldn't have denied it if asked by those people. It's the group of AP kids I'm worried about. The group of about sixty people that I've known for years and years, going as far back as grade one. My school's big. No one knows everyone. But the AP people, the core group, is one big interconnected web of friendships, acquaintences and competition. Everyone knows everything about everyone else. Last semester, I had one AP class, English. This semester, it's all different. I'm a year ahead in bio, as are a lot of the other AP people. Same goes for French. And the social is also an AP class. I know these people, or know of them. I would die if everyone suddenly knew, because I get enough stariotyping as the blind girl. And this is a group of people who consider themselves the elite. The people getting the university money and the awards and the leads in plays and top spots on sports teams, and student council and whatever else. You'd think they'd be the most likely group for me to come out to, especially as we all know each other and I don't need to prove to them that I have a brain and socially acceptable group of friends and acquaintences because we've all known each other for ever. But no. I'd much rather be outted to the stoners and slackers and the people who have goals that aren't strictly university/college oriented. I don't know. My brain's fucked up like that.
In other news. I attended the lgbt youth group in my city for the first time on Saturday. It rocked my socks and such other things.
In other, other news. I need to learn how to sleep because ten hours of sleep out of sixty-some of awakeness is not a good thing.
If you read this far......no, wait. No one did. I wouldn't have, so I don't blaim you.
[eta] AP = advanced placement. It's where they throw all the people who are farther ahead than regular classes but not willing to give up their souls to the IB program.