[It's simple, but it portrays what I'm feeling right now]

From the darkest age
When hell met my mind
Locked in you will find
A thought that will never go.
I see you watch me
Begging to ask me –
I see you watching –
If only it could be so perfect…
If only “If” wasn’t such an empty word.

So tell me if I entertain these thoughts
Will I let the darkness back in?
Uncertainty lies in truth..
But I’m afraid
That loving you won’t solve my problems
Like I want it to.

If only I did.
If only I felt the same
Way you do about me.
But I don’t.
What if I loved you?
What if I felt the same?
It all could be so perfect.
Maybe you could make me happy.
If only I could change…