I had every good intention of posting for GLM. I even submitted poems in the forum. But tomorrow is the dead line and I just can't seem to get my ass in gear. I miss my sisters and my daddy. It's been almost two years since he died and on that day this year, I have to celebrate a life and I just don't know if I can. I miss my girlfriend. She's out with a friend that I don't like because of all the drugs he does. I miss the way my little sister puts her head on my shoulder and is instatly calm when I pick her up. I miss waking up in my girlfriend's arms without wearing any clothes. I miss caring. And I miss the days when my biological father and I got along. When I adored him and he adored me. Because even though all the abuse he puts me through still, I love him and I hate it. My daddy and my biological father are too very different people. I am so tired. I want to sleep for about 2 years and wake up as somebody else. But I can never sleep. And when I can sleep, I have disturbing dreams. My life is trying to fall to bits but I am resisting as strong as possible. But sometimes, I jsut want to let go.