She broke up with me. She stole my heart in the beginning, but i didn't know that she was going to rip it in half like it was a piece of paper. I wouldn't feel as horrible if she wasn't all over a guy right after she did it. Laughing and smiling, while i was crying my heart out, trying to keep my friend from killing her. I still love her, soooo much and am having problems getting over it. It was just a couple days ago, but i keep reaching for the necklace with the J on it, to hold it to play with it, but it's not there anymore, i keep reading the notes she wrote me, wondering whatever happened to everything she wrote to me. I am heavily broken, and it's so hard, i have to try and take my own advice, keep your head up, things will get better, but it's so hard when your mom is still in total denial and your dad is uncomfortable with you, even though he supports you. My heart actually physically hurts, and i think it's because she kissed me in school three times that day, then broke up with me. I would still do anything for her, i'd still die for her, and i hate to say it, but if she wanted me back right now, i'd probably say yes. I can't though, and i told my friends to slap me in the face if i do go back. I gave up highschool bowl for her, so i could spend more time with her, i don't know what to do anymore, and of course, exams are next week, stress and a broken heart are not a good combination when taking hard exams, when in advanced classes.