Well haven't written anything that meant something in a long time.

I don't this will be one of those either but i'm just looking for that old feeling thats no longer there. That feeling of being connected to someone. I don't know but i haven't really been looking but i feel it there underlying the beat of my heart.

I think maybe its because there's this girl that i was flirting/trying to be with. Unfortunately over the break my school had for the holidays guess what happened. If you guessed correctly then she is now dating someone. I missed my window of oppurtunity.

Now its all alone again with no gay friends and friends who try the best they can but can't understand why its harder for me to get out there. I mean given im not out im not outgoing. Im not a very physical person either so alot of the girls i meet feel sex is so important while me on the other hand prefer the emotional.

Well I guess that was my ranting done and over till next time.

Lexi