Yep.As the title suggests I came out...to one person...my best friend.It all still feels a little sureal.We spent the day together.For most of the day her boyfriend was with us and I was thinking damn it I'm not going to get to do it!But then he got tired and headed home,so we went to play pool.
So I just kept saying to myself ok I'm going to do it now. It went on like that for about an hour.She knew there was somthing I wanted to say because she kept asking if I was ok or if I had any news.So after a while I said (Insert friends name) remember when I said I had no news really...well there is something.But its not news so much as something I need to say...to talk about.At this point I was shaking uncontrolabley!And she kept saying ok, just say whatever it is,and I was like oh shit I can't!I had it wroye down on paper (thanks guys for the suggestion!!).So I thought for a moment and then I just said it. Basically I told her everything..of how I like girls...i'm still not sure about guys..so I don't know if I'm gay or bi,and all she could do was hug me. I honestly could not have asked for a better reaction!
So we sat down and started talking...and I told her how freaked I had been.All she could do was tell me how much she loves me, and how she still thinks of me as the exact same person.She was like you are still you and I love you.She asked if anyone knew and I said no.I asked if she had ever suspected that I was,and she honestly had no clue.It was sort of funny,she said I do a great impression of a straight person.So yeah we just talked for ages about it,and then about other stuff going on in our lives.She thinks I should tell my other friends because she thinks they will be fine with it,but at the minute I'm taking baby steps.
So yeah,I'm glad I told her.I don't really feel any different ...should I?It does feel great that I can actually be myself with her and she doesn't care.So yeah that was my day.
Also thank you so much all you people for commenting on my last journal telling me to do it.It was the final push that I needed.
Well laterz guys and dolls!