take me
make me
fill me
kill me
turn me inside out and expose all my demons
masturbate into me and
paint me with your semen
is that all u got man?
is it time to take ur stand?
show this little girl
how to be grown up in the big bad world
teeth nails hipbones burn into my skin like fire ants
your fingers tear like icicles down the front of my pants
you bruise my neck as you grab me and tell me im not wet
what are you talking about, look at my face covered in sweat
and tears and mascara running down in lines
you told me I was pretty
you told me I was fine
you said ill kill you fucking dyke
as the blood seeped into the backseat of your car
smudged on your white t-shirt, on my jacket, on the door
I pray for you to leave but you keep coming back for more
everythings blurry and the stars are too bright
as I begin to die on this beautiful night
and when I get to hell, ill wait there for years
until u arrive and you drown in my tears

(T. '06)

*** My poem is very serious, but its not based on personal expereince. Some of my freinds have unfortunately been through the horrible nightmarish expereince of rape and sexual abuse. Sometimes it was date-rape, sometimes the predator was an older person they knew and trusted- a parent, a step-brother, their babysitter's boyfreind... it can happen to anyone. we grew up in good homes, in a good affluent suburban neighborhood. with perfect lawns. and perfect lives. but i guess on the inside, everything wasnt so perfect. but by opening up and shering their stories, those girls are doing the best thing they can- they're teaching us. their spreading the word. the world has evolved so much but there are still those people, those people who never evolved, who are still violent beasts... who think its ok to force some girl or boy into something. theyre disgusting and they need to be stopped. why do people place so much of the blame on the victim? she shouldnt have been walking at night, she shouldnt have been drinking, dresing like a slut, whatever... fuck that. bullshit. nobody, NOBODY ever asks to be raped. there is no excuse. no justification. why do they have all these self-defense courses that teach women how to fight off sexual attackers??? instead they shoud have classes that teach men not to rape and beat women. and when we hear about a rape on the news, we dont even flinch. violence has become so normalized as a part of american culture, and thousands of ex-convict pedophiles and predators are walking the streets free right now. and that is sick and sad.