Ah, I went to visit my sister this weekend.....t'was fun. But really EVERTIME I go there I get asked if I'm gay! We went out to a club the other night and my sister was getting annoyed with me while we were getting ready because I'm not girly enough and half of the fun of going out to her is getting dressed up for it......Anyway, I dressed the way I felt comfortable for once with baggy jeans and a polo shirt and only wore a little bit of make-up. The whole time we were getting ready though she was making me feel bad about not being girly. Her boyfriend was awesome though and wipped out some pictures of their past party times and explained who every single person in the photo was heheh. Hes pretty annoying when hes drunk, but in a fun way!
So, we get to the club and I'm feeling better, being all liquor up, and it was pretty packed so it was easy to get lost in the crowd if you wanted to. We danced a bit, then we went to get a drink and stood around a table for a little while and my sisters boyfriend just stareed at me for a little while, then leans in and says "Your gay right?" SHOCK! He asks me everytime I'm there, but not like, straight out.....he usually just asks if I like girls more than guys or if I've ever done anything with a girl. So I asked him why he ALWAYS asks me that and he just said because its a vibe he gets from me. (but I think I do look pretty gay most of the time, I'm definitely not girly!) Then I asked him if my sister thinks I am and he said no, but I think hes lying..... Then I tried to just get him to forget that I didn't really answer and turned around, but he turned me around and was like "It doesn't matter to me what your sexuality is, I don't care." then I asked him why he was asking then and he said "Just tell me I really wouldn't care, I have some friends who are gay. I just want you to tell me! It would be awesome if you could just open up about it cause I know lots of gay people are too afraid to do that and just won't open up." Yeah.....I didn't know what to say so I just kept laughing. He kept bugging me to tell him so I just pushed him away without answering and turned around again. Then he grabbed me and hugged me and said I was awesome hehe. So I went and sat beside my sister and then he let it go....just kept smiling.
So yeah, I didn't really tell him, but I pretty much let him know and I'm betting hes not going to keep it to himself (even though I think he knows I don't want my sister to know) so she will probably know soon too. I'm pretty sure she won't say anything though because thats just the way she is....she'll keep on going as if I was just a boyish straight girl. If she does say anything then it will just be to get the answer, then she'll most likely drop it because I don't think she would really want to talk about it......The next day I felt pretty akward around him and I don't know if he did too or if it was just the after effects of drinking, but I hope he really is as okay with it as he was saying he would be hehe
I'm really getting to the point where its not as big of a deal to me if people find out or think I'm gay, I'm just feeling so obvious lately..... I'd just still rather my family didn't find out.