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22 December, 2006 - 6:21am — ForeverEndedToday

Being confused with my sexuality was bad but I think gender is even worse. I wake up some days and am really unhappy with the fact that I have breasts and a vagina. Then I'll go to bed and wake up and be okay with my body. But two weeks ago I had that feeling and it hasnt gone away since. For the past couple of months I've identifies as bi-gender/androgynous so I dont have to deal with it. Im not one of those people who can be in the middle and be happy with that though.
When I was three or four I used to pray to god that I could be like my brothers. Needless to say it didnt happen. Now I get uncomfortable when someone uses she-pronouns. I just want to know who I am I dont want to go through another six months of questioning myself like I did with my sexual orientation.
I think I just labeled myself as bigender because im afraid of what might actually happen if im a trannyboi. That would be coming out to everyone I know as different gender, and that could get complicated. Im worried about peoples reaction at school and people in public. My boy name is Chase by the way. The whole avoid it and call myself bi didnt work, i thought about it. I'm not sure which name I want to go by on here so for now just go with kaleigh. Heres to six months of not knowing who I am. The clock starts now.

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22 December, 2006 - 4:45pm — raining men
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Knowing

Knowing yourself is very overrated. It doesn't really bring much.

"Fear leads to anger, anger leads to hate, hate leads to suf-fer-ing"

22 December, 2006 - 10:03pm — whateversexual_llama
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Welcome, dear, to

Welcome, dear, to whateversexuality. But I'm really not in the mood to rant about it. Let's just say I'm very whatevergendered and it makes like way easier.

Be yourself. Because if you're busy being someone else, then who's gonna be you?

22 December, 2006 - 10:36pm — yep_im_a_stalker
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I like whateversuxual's comment

it makes sense.

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We don't have to be stars exploding in the night
Or electric eels under the covers
We don't have to be
Anything quite so unreal
Lets just be lovers

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22 December, 2006 - 11:27pm — patnelsonchilds (not verified)
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I Am What I Am

I am what I am
I am my own special creation
So come take a look
Give me the hook or the ovation
Its my world
That I want to have a little pride in
My world
And its not a place I have to hide in
Lifes not worth a damn
Till you can say
I am what I am

I am what I am
I dont want praise I dont want pity
I bang my own drum
Some think its noise I think its pretty
And so what if I love each sparkle and each bangle
Why not try to see things from a different angle
Your life is a sham
Till you can shout out
I am what I am

I am what I am
And what I am needs no excuses
I deal my own deck
Sometimes the aces sometimes the deuces
Its one life and theres no return and no deposit
One life so its time to open up your closet
Lifes not worth a damn till you can shout out
I am what I am

I am what I am

I am what I am
And what I am needs no excuses
I deal my own deck sometimes the aces sometimes the deuces
Its one life and theres no return and no deposit
One life so its time to open up your closet
Lifes not worth a damn till you can shout out
I am what I am

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This song (from La Cage Aux Folles) is pretty much a cliche now, but I still find it very uplifing. Most people would probably consider it the National Anthem of the alternative lifestyle. It's definitely a song that every gay, lesbian, bi, tran, furry, queer, questioning or whateversexual person should own a copy of. Okay, yes, even straight people should own it! LOL.

- Pat Nelson Childs
"bringing strong gay
characters to Sci-Fi & Fantasy"

www.myspace.com/patnelsonchilds