Being confused with my sexuality was bad but I think gender is even worse. I wake up some days and am really unhappy with the fact that I have breasts and a vagina. Then I'll go to bed and wake up and be okay with my body. But two weeks ago I had that feeling and it hasnt gone away since. For the past couple of months I've identifies as bi-gender/androgynous so I dont have to deal with it. Im not one of those people who can be in the middle and be happy with that though.
When I was three or four I used to pray to god that I could be like my brothers. Needless to say it didnt happen. Now I get uncomfortable when someone uses she-pronouns. I just want to know who I am I dont want to go through another six months of questioning myself like I did with my sexual orientation.
I think I just labeled myself as bigender because im afraid of what might actually happen if im a trannyboi. That would be coming out to everyone I know as different gender, and that could get complicated. Im worried about peoples reaction at school and people in public. My boy name is Chase by the way. The whole avoid it and call myself bi didnt work, i thought about it. I'm not sure which name I want to go by on here so for now just go with kaleigh. Heres to six months of not knowing who I am. The clock starts now.