AH! SHE HAS A BOYFRIEND!!!!
I honestly thought I had a chance; that I had a chance to be her girlfriend. Today was going wonderfully! She said my hair was cute. When I had my head down on my desk, she asked me if something was wrong. She said I was kind. She even smiled and waved at me in the hall! I offered her a ride home, but we went to Walmart first. Then I caught her looking at something and she said, "Wow, I think my boyfriend would like this."
It hurt so terribly bad! I was so hopeful, but again I have been gloriously risen to be harshly shoved down. I'm not going "Woe me," but it's just that I honestly thought this was my time to shine and sweep her up to be mine. It hurt so bad, but I tried to continue acting the same, but all I wanted to do was walk away and cry to myself.
I'm still giving her her gift tomorrow: Hello Kitty poptarts and notebook. She's in love with the mute kitten. But, it'll be a little painful giving it to her knowing that she'll love her boyfriend's gift more. I want to give her a note as well saying that I'm glad we can be friends despite my shameful feelings, but I don't know if that's too much. I don't know, is it?