Today was great. I actually did something fun for once. My buddy Luke and I both needed to go to a candy store (Like bulk barrel for example) for our second period class. So since I needed to get a new hoody or two, well, not 'need' so much as want... anyway. I asked him if he wanted to come to the mall with me and Caitlyn. And this was the first time we ever hung out outside of school, so that's why I'm explaining the event of going to the mall with this guy.
Anyway, well, Luke is gay, of course. Anyway. We found the calendar stand in the mall and I started looking at the hot half-naked girl calendars. I never used to feel comfortable looking at them, because you know, I was looking at a half-naked woman and not only was I barely pubescent but I was all, "I'm not gay, that's gross." It felt great to look at those skanky girls advertising their gorgeous bodies for money. Then Luke saw the half naked cowboy calendars and was all like, "Oooh, he's sexy!" and stuff and he reminded me of my friend's mom. And it was cute. Then I realized I was doing the same thing except with my own gender, hehe. and I was like, "Wow, I'm the girl and I'm looking at male porn, and you're the guy looking at female porn! this is COOL!" It just kinda hit me for the first time that we're both gay but the opposit gender. It was a strange epiphany and I liked it.
Then Caitlyn was just standing there all like, Okay... I don';t think she really knew what to do.
And there was this gay couple -- I swear they were gay, they had that... gayness about them and they were together, right? anyway, they were selling this straightener in a stand, and well, other stuff I didn't concentrate on. And the one guy with the long hair and the foreign accent did a demo of a curling iron/straighter in one, and he was like, "Your hair is naturally wavey, yes?" and i was like, yeah, so he said, "Well, I'll make it curly for you." and he did, I just wanted a couple strands at the front, I didn't want to sit there for an hour because I had things to buy. But it looked great!! And he said it was $140, down from the original price of $250. I was like, "Wow, I only need 90 more dollars..." so he wrote a note and told me to come back with it when I have the money and I could get it for the sale price still! I love him. He's like, my new favourite hair stylist. He might not be gay though, I shouldn't just assume that.
Anyway. After I got my amazing two hoodies for 40 dollars (It was still that buy 1 get one free deal, I LOVE Randy River for their sales) we hit the DDR dance pad. Silver City's dance pas is a little overused, so the one on the left doesn't work so well. And by the time we were done, the right one was lagging a little too... it was a fun night...
Luke met my mommy and daddy tonight too. I had to stop off at home to pick up my stuff to stay at Caitlyn's, and they started playing my nanna's old baby grand. Anywayz. Yeah. So I went onto MSN and Myspace at Caitlyn's and my little 12-year-old cousin commented me and was all like, YOUR A LESBIAN? GBDSGDUIBGERVHUDBVC BHBN" and like freaked out, and I was just like, yeah, I am. Then she was like, "WTF is wrong with you?" and I said the same thing back, and basically she acted like I was some gross thing, at one point she told me to stay the fuck away, even though I never see her anyway since she lives far away. I don't really care. even if she tells my other relatives, the only two I really care about are my Aunt Nancy and maybe my cousin Sarah, because like, we're the same age, we've kind of grown up together, it would be nice to have a decent relationship with at least one of my cousins. And we get along pretty well. I don't think either my aunt or Sarah will really make a big deal of it. the others might like, avoid me. I dunno, maybe sarah too. It doesn't really bother me though. I mean, I rarely ever see that part of my family. My mom's side I mean. I know my dad's side would hate me, they're like, all very religious Ukrainian Catholics, and pretty much all of them are very conservative. I know the ones who matter to me will get used to it.
But I even said this to my ignorant little cousin Holly, if my family abandons me because of my sexuality, then it's their loss. I have friends who pretty much are my family, and they all know about me. They support me and love me nonetheless.
I guess, I just wanted to say my day was entirely great. I'll even go as far as saying school was fun. Having my cousin find out and act like that really got a lot of stress off my back. Now my family will know, and they can decide for themselves how important my life is to them. The cat's completely out of the bag, the dyke's completely out of the closet, and the truth feels great!