You guys, I think I might be.......a nerd. I really have tried to fight it and have never wanted to fully call myself a nerd, but it is becoming more and more apparent that that is, in fact, what I am! I have been denying it for so long now, trying to convince myself that it was just a phase.....I think everyone else knows it already, but I have been trying to fake cool anyway. I'm sure they would all be supportive and treat me the same if I told them, I just can't seem to just let myself get over trying and wanting to be cool. I feel so akward when hanging around with the "in" crowd and have felt for a long time that I really don't belong there...... I guess I was meant to be this way though, so I should just stop fighting it. I actually feel pretty sad about this realization, but now that I have admitted it to myself, I can finally start trying to accept it!