Grrrrrrrr I'm not happy with myself right now. I'm feeling lonely, and I've been thinking a lot about my failed relationships in the past, which only succeeds in making me more depressed and lonely. But that's not really the point of this post. The thing recently is that I've begun to hope for getting a new relationship, which is a relitively big step for me right now. But the thing I'm worryed about is that I'm gonna fall for the next guy who asks me out. I just don't know how I'm going to stop it, i mean I consciously can try, but I'm afraid that's not gonna do much good. I really want a good guy this time. So yeah I just kinda wanted to get that off my chest.