wow, so i was reading the forum topics about books... and found something i had posted, and realized that it was about a year ago. i'd totally forgotten i'd posted that, but it's strange thinking about it. when i first joined oasis i was barely out to myself. the idea of straight was still something that i wanted. a year. it's a strange thought. i'm comparing where i am now to where i was then. i'm out to most of my friends, involved with the LGBTA on campus, much more comfortable with myself. right now i'm actually kind of pissed though. a year of my life was spent becoming comfortable with who i am because of ideals that my parents and the rest of society raised me on. i guess it's what is. i'm happy now, in any case, and even though i'd hardly consider where i am right now to be optimal (i want a girlfriend, or really just someone to hold so bad) thinking as to how much progress i've made i feel somewhat energized. ok, off to reflect now.