Well, this morning,I woke up and ate breakfast @ probably noon, so i guess it wasn't technically morning...Anyway, my mom got a call from a friend, who is living with a friend @ her work...now I thought I had overheard her talking about this friend the other day and saying she was gay, so I was like alright, the lesbian friend is staying w/ julia...as it turns out, julia is a lesbian...Now I knew my mom had a lot of closted friends, quite a few of whom she works with, but I would never have guessed Julia was a lesbian...I mean, she was married for one, had two of the coolest kids I think I've ever known-I used to board w/ them until they went off to college. Anyway, Julia is still in the closet and is gay,so I'm alright w/ that. She was always kind of eccentric, an old hippie and just a crazy, but cool person...Now to the angry and annoyed part...Well, as probably no one on oasis remembers, when I first came on this site a few years ago, I was still questioning my sexuality...I told my mom I needed to see a doctor about all of my mental issues, which she agreed to let me do...I also told her I thought I was bi, which pissed off quitty, if anyone here remembers him, and so I had placed some trust in my mom for the first time in a long time...But today, when I was checking my myspace page, she walked in after telling me jullia was gay and then started talking about my questioning quite loudly in front of an open window...I was just like, "shut the fuck up!!!the neighbors are out there!" and she did, but we still got in a fight about it...The way she was talking about julia though, made it seem like she had talked to julia about my questioning, which is quite possible, actually, I'm certain it happened....So that leaves me w/ the whole violated trust thing, which was why I was afraid to trust her with that in the first place...GAHHH....this is exactly why I don't trust anyone...!!!! Trust always gets betrayed!!! whatever you tell someone, no matter what it is, it will always slip out!!! Now I feel like I will never fully trust another person again...Ever!!!....I am so pissed...I know from the way she said it that she told julia, but who else did she tell????That crazy-ass bitch @ her church whose fucking whole life is PFLAG? The lesbians @ the local environmental group???Her whole fucking women's group???Her Spiritual class???!!!!. God, this is really, really scaring me...I know I'm paranoid, but I also know that she has told more than one person about this!!! It wasn't hers to tell ANYONE!!! She said she wouldn't....I dunno, I'm fucking pissed off right now....l8r.