I'm not sure what I did, but I was walking by Soras (My nickname for my best friend... The one I also happen to have a crush on.) house. So I decided to drop by. And we chatted a little, and then her mom called her over, and I couldn't hear what they were saying... And then she came back and said that she couldn't hang out with me for a while. So I sorta waved and left. And then halfway back to my house I realized that would mean that I probably won't see her for a while. I keep feeling giluty. I hope I didn't get her in trouble. Whats worse is when she said that she wouldn't be able to see me she sounded near-tears. Which makes me feel even more giulty. I've been in a bad mood since then... I think it's because I came at a bad time, like when she was supposed to be doing chores or something. And I was supposed to know, she probably told me. But being the super-forgetful and dyslexic person I am... I probably forgot or something.

It's annoying because I really want to hang out with her, but she's busy or something and now I can't see her. ._. And, seeing her is the only thing I really want to do right now. I'm really regretting not coming out to her sooner. Because now I'll have to wait longer.

Oh! I just remembered something, the other day my friend, Sora, said that if she were a boy she'd date me. Which is wierd because... I'm gay. X3 (But if you're reading this you probably have that figured out.) Has anyone else had that happen? I wonder what it means? Mabye there is a remote possiblity of her liking me back! Though I don't want to get my hopes up.

On the other hand, I have to start getting fabrics for a Sango costume. There's a convention coming up and Sora is going as Sango and I'm going as Miroku. XDDD I'm going as Miroku because Soras older siter.. (Aka, Axel.) Basically ordered me to go as him. And, Sora was trying to come up with two coustumes I could do, because we wanted to be from the same series. And since I already had a Miroku coustume...

And, in other news, I found Death Note vol.5 (one of my favorites) in the original Japanese! =D This made me extremley happy untill I found out how small my japanese vocabulary is. I can read it, (the Hirangana and some of the kanjii) but not understand it. It's sad isn't it?