I got really angry at this site a little while ago.....I don't know why. I don't think I had a reason, I just felt this intense hate. Weird. Anyway, I took an online test thing for depression and supposedly I am at high risk for being clinically depressed. Didn't really need the test to tell me that, especially given that the doctor and psychologist already informed me of this last year. It also runs in my family...lucky me! I didn't even feel depressed until I started questioning my sexuality. AH I need to talk to someone....I just don't want to!!! Hmph! I'm stuck! My mom found out that I was depressed last year because I kind of had a breakdown. Last year it was probably getting to me the most that I'm gay/bi(still won't let go of the possibility of having not met the right guy yet). There are other reasons for the depression too, I think it was just the stress I put on myself about my sexuality that pushed it over the edge. Now my mom has been treating me differently for this last year since she found out. So now I feel like I ALWAYS have to play happy so she won't worry about me. She always asks me, like shes checking or something, if I'm depressed!! Its depressing being asked that constantly! This is also why I NEVER want to come out to her. She treats me differently with depression, imagine how differently she would treat me if I told her I like girls! NEVER!

I like that no one on here knows who I am....it makes it easier to talk. Even though I still care what you think of me. But since you really don't know me, it doesn't hold me back from talking. Nice to have a place to write thoughts.