I am sooooommmmaaaaaddddddd at him.

6 July, 2006 - 12:29am — oldfoxbob

Ok so I go to the Dr.'s office today at 12;45 pm and sit there for several hours only to get another appmt tomorrow at 3pm...I drive home, get out of the car and go inside only to find all the doors closed and the dog in the computer room with the door shut too... My lover is nowere to be seen...Bedroom door is closed..I open it and my jaw hits the floor....We have a open relationship Robb and I do that is to say he can have sex with other persons as long as its not at our home and not in our bed...Yet here he
is naked with some other guy on top of him
going at it!!!AND WITH NO CONDOM!!! I yell at the guy to get the fuck out of my house
then start yelling at Robb for breaking our promice to each other...DAMN I AM MAD RIGHT NOW! I feel like throwing him out too...I feel my trust has been broken and lost by him...Yeah I can't perform for him as I am unable to get an erection but still.............What to do????Talk it out and make up and forgive and forget? Hell no I cant forget...forgive yes...forget no....I am seeething with anger....no place to turn so I type it out here. Sorry to rant and rave like this but I need to blow steam.....
I am shaking with anger....No I won't hit him or the like just need to calm down.
Shit I hate this happening....We have been together for 15 years and this now happens...shit shit shit shit. Ok take a deep breath....go have a smoke and calm down....Ok better now...took a 20 min walk. I am over the anger somewhat now and am much calmer...We talk....he admits he is wrong...I except his appology...its over now...but man you should have seen the face of the other guy when I came storming in the bedroom....Its funny now that I look back on it...I am laughing at his supprised look on his face...getting dressed fast and leaving on a run...
lol...
damn...it was funny.
oldfoxbob

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6 July, 2006 - 12:41am — icequeen18

okay

Oh wow. 15 years?! That's amazing in itself.
Just try to relax more. It's good that
you have a place to rant...

"Life is what happens while you are busy
making other plans."
~John Lennon

7 July, 2006 - 7:52am — Disney

Wow that sounds pretty horrib

Wow that sounds pretty horrible! :( Still, looking at it from your partner's perspective, and being a bit harsh here but... you can't get it up any more, he wants to get it up with someone else, maybe he is getting bored and or was strapped for time and had to bring the person home. Hopefully this isn't a full out affair, but did you recognize the guy? 15 years is a long partnership, have you ever cheated on him? The AIDs thing, well I would slap him for that, or slap him on behalf of me; because gay men spreading AIDs is a big stereotype and how hard (no pun intended) is it to put some protection on? :( Was the guy young? I hope things work out ok, your partner is probably really sorry, but still sounds just a tad much.

-J, boy, gay and 16 all the way. Just not out to anyone yet. I guess my sig could use some work.

6 July, 2006 - 3:05am — Hyacinthus

sad

Oh wow... that is such a sad story oldfoxbob! I'm so sorry for you!!! Jeez I dunno what I would do in a situation like that... I really hope that everything works out for the best!

"Persuasive speech, and more persuasive sighs,
Silence that spoke, and eloquence of eyes."
- The Iliad (bk. XX, l. 315), (Bryant's translation)

6 July, 2006 - 5:08am — deepspace87

im impressed u forgave him, i

im impressed u forgave him, i woulda kicked him out right then and there, lol

"Never apologize for saying what you feel. It's like apologizing for being real."

6 July, 2006 - 6:51am — Adam A

boby, i think u'r too light.

boby, i think u'r too light. whatever not my business, but just out of curiousity, if they weren't using a condom...ah...shouldn't you be a little worried...like...with the HIV business and all?

6 July, 2006 - 7:01am — oldfoxbob

Robb is Pos

Robb was tested pos for HIV last march...Which tells
me he has done this before and was unsafe...Hence we dont
have sex together unless it is totally safe type anymore.
But I am thinking of not having sex with him at all now.
oldfoxbob
Genius is not a sign of intelligence, but rather
that of common sense.

6 July, 2006 - 7:04am — Adam A

i was thinking more about the

i was thinking more about the other guy...him getting hiv....and then if he doesn't know, spreading it

6 July, 2006 - 3:42pm — oldfoxbob

He was told by me before he left.

Genius is not a sign of intelligence, but rather
that of common sense.