It is annoying to remember to click on Create Content and not just My Journal to add a new entry. Have to start volunteering tomorrow = getting up before 12am! :0 I want to go see Pirates of the Caribbean with someone. Got female friends to go with, would feel weird emailing them to go though. Feeling very comfy with being gay, my dad is in another province for work most of the time now so just mom and me and my brother from university every few days. Debating telling mommy I'm gay! I'm a 16 year old boy with light brown skin, not tanned, but not 'brown'. Dark brown eyes, black hair, hey ancestors were from India. But Caribbean c'est moi heritage. Or apparantly Canada is. I don't want to do basically nothing for 4 hours tomorrow for volunteer time! Yuck. Still have not gone swimming, have not even visited the pool recommended. Going for an hour sounds so dumb, but last night I could not get to sleep and was just thinking of how I want to look like those hottie myspace boys and very attractive 20+ male models or just men with abs and a decent body. Not that mine is decent but who doesnt want MUSCLE? We all love comments, I mean most of this stuff isn't just a reflection, although it is. It's an advice seeking tool too. I signed up on Mogenic, no results turned up for where I live, and just 3 short pages of people in Toronto that are gay. Oh well, maybe where I go to university will have many many many gays. I want to invent something amazing. I want to remember 24/7 those times that I feel 100% comfortable with my sexuality and know that no one will hurt me and it'd mean LESS people calling me 'fag' or gay or giving me a look, and if they did I could just smile. I'd feel so weird at semi-formal/dances though. And not sure how that would improve my social circuit, but who knows? Lovely long paragraph. Laterdays...