My grandpa just called. He's the ex-husband of my lesbian grandmother, who had a child with him before they got divorced. This child is my dad. He seems to be doing well, and he asked me if I had a boyfriend yet.

Of course I said no, and he said that "a pretty girl like me should have a boyfriend". Ugh.

Why the heck did I have to be a lesbian?? How's my grandfather going to react when he hears about this? I have no idea what he thinks of gay people after his experience with my grandma, and I don't know if I'll ever be able to tell him anyways.

I'm thinking way too far ahead again, aren't I? I do that all the time. Gah. I can't help it. I always worry about my future.

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*worriesworriesworries*