Yeah, to be honest. I forgot ALL ABOUT this site. T.T I'm so forgetful.
But anyway. My past two months, starting from where I left off abotu that other guy in a rant, here we GO!!!
He turned me down by practically ripping my heart out and stomping it into the ground. He told me, "That I was sick and needed pychiatric help." I was really depressed for about the next two weeks, but as I looked at it and thought about it more. I just pushed him outta my mind with a big FUCK YOU. Okay, so school let out and the summer began, pretty boring and meaningless until the middle of this month. A friend asked me to go with her to eat lunch. I said okay. So we stopped by and visited our gay friend. He's getting along much better now that he has somewhere else to go. He was gonna try to come back to our school, but the counsolar advised him "That he was better off staying a dropout.", kinda fucked up, if you ask me. So then we picked up a male friend of ours and we all played at couple of rounds of bullshit back at my female friends house. They both took me out in the woods to show me this "waterfall" and a "zombie cat", well the "zombie cat" was cool, but the "waterfall" had dried up. I began to notice how gorgous the guy was looking, but shook the thoughts away.
A couple weeks later I got the nerve to ask him if he liked guys. He told me yes and described to me some stuff in pretty explicit detail. I todl him some "stuff" and then told him I liked him but I wanted our friendship to stay good and wanted to know if he wanted to go out. I told him I was okay either way. And then he told me he would have to think about it.
So about four days later he IM's me and is like, "You told (insert female friend's name here), abotu me didn't you!". I told him I didn't and he is like "How'd she know I was at the beach." So in his mind, if I told her about him being at the beach I must have told her abotu him being gay/bi or w/e.
So to make a long story short, the fooker played me for three days. Then decides to blow up my heart with anger/depression. It seems this story is coming to a sad ending no?
Well I got over him pretty fast b/c my friends are there for me. And I go back to school this friday. I'm looking forward too it.
There is one thing bothering me though. I am wanting to come out. I figured it would be much easier on me if I would.
I just don't know how to come about it. Mom is always trying to hook me up with different female friends of mine, and it would be so much easier to stop her that way. :| WEll FEEDBACK WOULD BE NICE!