Why Me??

Kodak13's picture

i live in some wat opened minded place like theyre cool wit gays but noone in our family is gay so like when i relized i was gay in 6th grade i was like Shit amd didnt act on my feelin then like this year 7th grade i was "it hurts to much to deny" so i think i accepted it but im still ?in it "like why me" i dont know but when i think bout im like how couldnt ive know ive always been different so like now i need help understandin it cuz i feel like im by myself but know im not.

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cali gurl's picture

yeah its hard and accorse ur

yeah its hard and accorse ur not alone ur not diffrent and i think u know ur gay but ur just denying it..im going through the exact same thing...just stick with it and do ur best to get through it good luck in life

i rather be hated for what i am then to be loved for some thing im not

msquared's picture

Hmmm

I was in the same situation as you before. You're pretty sure that people will accept but still nervous and feeling negatively about it. Then when you think, "Why me?" you get that feeling in the pit of your stomach and you just want to curl up in a little ball. Well, that's how it was for me, at least. What helped me was to accept the fact that I am who I am and I can't change that. Straight people don't ask "Why me?" so you shouldn't have to either. And if you get down on yourself for being gay and feel really bad just remember that being sad about it is just like giving in to all of the homophobes who want you to be sad about being gay. Be yourself and rejoice! Best of luck!
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jeff's picture

hmm...

As much as this is a normal question, it is one you are never going to have an answer to, so on some level your goal is to just accept not knowing the question.

Of course, doing that is the process of accepting your sexuality as an innate characteristic, like your eye color, hair color, which hnd you write with, and all the other ins and outs that are unique to you in some way, but don't define you.

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"I could eat a knob at night." -- Karl Pilkington

frizzfro45's picture

as much as i hate hearing thi

as much as i hate hearing this, as much as i don't wanna say this, i almost feel like i have to,
don't lable yourself, especially this young, and why any of us, why not some homophobe who deserves to feel, and understand what is going on with us, life sucks man, you yourself have to accept it, it is hard, but you have to do it, the first step in coming out, and you don't have to come out, but you will more than likely feel better, is to accept it yourself, understand what is happening, understand what it means to be gay, i went through the same thing, asking wether i was bi/lesbian or not, and no one could give me the answer, and i was scared, only you know, only you can tell people about you, and make them understand.

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shinedownkicksyouras's picture

don't pressure yourself into

don't pressure yourself into sometype of label it all comes with time

Don't feel the need to define me...I can define myslef

Hyacinthus's picture

Why?

Why you eh? Well personally I think being gay is something to be proud of. I mean it is something that is so very beautiful, and certainly not new to society. I mean there have been gay men and women in society since the dawn of our race. As for understanding who you are, that's truly a personal journey, and one that may not just be based in your sexuality. Don't pressure yourself into trying to understand everything right now, just kinda enjoy the moment. Understanding will come with thought and time. Well that's just my 2 cents, hope it helped!

"Persuasive speech, and more persuasive sighs,
Silence that spoke, and eloquence of eyes."
- The Iliad (bk. XX, l. 315), (Bryant's translation)

Kodak13's picture

Thanks

thanks yall it is great here

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