I've always been- no that's a lie, lets try that agian.... I've been completly open about my sexuality ever since the begining of this year. I was going to say I have always been open because I have always been open about it...well to myself that is. After I met this girl I decided to open up and tell everyone. She made me feel that good about myself. When I was with her I wanted to be just like her. She was so open with her sexuality that I just had to come out...thats when I found out she liked me. Soon enough we were inseprable, but I got scared and backed out after we kissed. She wasn't the first girl I had ever kissed, but she was the first one I had ever felt about in 'that way'. The kiss seemed to seal the deal for me. I didn't think I could be Bisexual all my life. I didn't know if that was what I wanted. I left her in the dust and started to act more 'straight'. I didn't speak with her for three weeks. SHe moved on and we became just friends. It was never the same.
After awhile I realized I loved her.
Now she's dating a boy and I have moved out of state and I will problebly never get to see her agian. I don't think I'll ever be able to forget what she did for me. I don't hide any more. I'm very open about myself now. Of course I regret my fear about her and I, but it made me realise the pain hiding puts us through. I still love her, and because of her I'm now not afraid to say it.