I've messed up really badly.

xxneedtodestroy's picture

I'm going to make this short.
I had a best friend. A good friend. She knew me better than anyone, she was my other half.
Then I fell in love with her.
On Saturday, we made with the smoochies, confessed love pour one another.
Later that night, and all of the next morning, she was making out with a guy she liked.
Only talking to me, touching me, when he wasn't around.
We discussed the whole thing later, and decided we shouldnt do anything right now.
And she's already with this guy.
Makeout guy.
Already over me.
Fabo, hm?
This is so sucky.
Why? Because;

1. I am the second choice. I am not the priority, I am not the favourite,
I am not the desired one, I am not wanted. I'm the second choice, the replacement.
2. I have to see them together all the time, all over each other, and it kills me.
3. I have nobody to talk about this. She was my best friend, the one I got advice from.
The one I talked to about everything.

I've found a way to numb myself, but I can't do it 24/7.

Comments

SilentBlue's picture

:(

Maybe you are only the second choice because it is more "right" for her to go out with a guy. She could just be more afraid of what others would say if she started to date you rather than a guy. Or she might just feel more comfortable at the moment with being with a guy, this doesn't necessarily mean you are number 2 to her.