This morning my bus was late. I came late to homeroom and the girl who sits beside me (so the order goes MM me her) was with me. When we came in I said "Miss me?" And MM was all "Yes, I'm so glad you came, I think my heart just stopped!" and the other girl was like "What's she doing?" And I said "Pretending she's happy to see us." And then MM turns to the other girl, looks her full in the face and says "I'm only pretending for you." Then she burst out laughing. Mine was split-second delayed because she basically said she was genuinely glad to see me.

Then a few minutes later she said something that basically meant she was hiding something under her glove (our school barely has a dress code, you could wear gloves scarf coat and a clown nose all day and no one would stop you) and that I could see it if I wanted to. Scary, scary. "Are you sure?" She nodded. This was one of our serious times. I gently and slowly pulled up her glove and was barely surprised when I saw the scar, but I didn't register the shape of it. A five pointed star - exactly like the ones she pointed out that I'd drawn all over my binder. So it could represent me. Or be a coincidence. But I don't think it's too coincidental. "Don't do this to yourself." I told her straight up. She might as well have slapped me, showing me that hurt me so much because I can't stand the thought of her going through that.

I asked if there was anything I could do and she said "Just be there for me." I said, "I will. I'll be here everyday, except of course Saturdays and Sundays, I hope neither of us is ever here then." A smile and laugh. I cheered her up a little. I felt warm inside. A hug before class, just like yesterday's - close and snuggly, solidly there. Did I even go to class after that? No clue. I expect I did though. I seem to have today's notes anyhow (bordered by little "M"s in hearts).

Lunch time. I ate something, she seemed glad to see that. She was lying down trying to sleep. I'm not sure exactly how it happened but suddenly the rest of our friends were gone and I was beside her, leaning against my bookbag and a locker. I would've been closer to her but her coat and someone's bookbag were sprawled between us. We were still fairly close. I dunno how, but somehow I made her laugh and ended up owing her 25 cents. Then people (namely, Her Boyfriend and his friend) came back and she went quiet again. Is it his presence that does that to her? Reminds her of whatever's been bugging her lately? Ah yes of course. When K was all over him on Friday. That would bug me too. Then the bell rang and I was *literally* carried off to class by S (she'll most likely be showing up in more entries now).

Class together. Meh. Didn't talk much. MM was drawing a picture of The Star again. I looked at my binder. Identical ones littered it. Coincidence? No idea. She had just noticed them yesterday. She could've been planning on cutting one into her palm for a long time.

So after school I gave her her quarter. S picked me up and threw me to AS (if you've been reading these you remember I said to pronounce it "ass" cause he is one) and they played the scariest game of catch I've ever been involved in. Really fun, but I was in extreme danger of falling and dying on the concrete, lol.

S and I were pretending to fool around, hugging and more. Talking about doing it. Just to make each other, ourselves, and our freakish perverted friends laugh. It was hilarious made me wish some of it actually meant something *sighs*

No hug from MM before she left. Hoping that's not significant, maybe she just didn't see me (I was after all, between S and a brick wall right then).

Next installment of My Life The Fanfic, tomorrow or Thursday. Will MM stay with D even with K interfering? Will S take things too far? Will someone drop me on my head and kill me? Stay tuned!