OK, currently today is fuzzly wuzzly. I'll try and piece together what I can.

Well this morning, MM and I didn't talk much, there was like forty billion (translation: eight) people between us.

Homeroom I was fuming because ex-bestfriend ignored me again. Why won't she just accept my ****ing apologies?!?! I've been apologizing for three weeks now and - calm. Deep breath. I'm done. Not the place or time. Anyway I was really ticked. But through my anger and hurt I did notice that MM was sitting closer than usual; our shoulders touched a bit. Maybe I just didn't give her as much room as always? She could've asked me to move, jokingly pushed me, sat on my other side......

Hug before science. My heart is wanting her, she's kinda leading me on by not telling me to wake up and smell her boyfriend.

Lunch. Wow. Her Boyfriend nowhere in sight, she was leaning against a wall while we were talking to our friends. I was beside her and I put my hand against the wall like I was resting it there, so when she laughed (which was often) her shoulder touched my hand. This standing arrangement lasted a wonderful 5 minutes but still. It happened.

LA. Best part of my day by a long shot. We're in the same group for a project on that novel The Outsiders. Our group is like, finished. So we spent the time talking to our other friend K. Most of the wonderful conversation has been lost in the blur of the rest of the day but I remember this -

K bragging about guys she's kissed and stuff. I'm saying I'm jealous, and would you please shut up before I have a breakdown? And MM says she'd teach me what I need to know. "Just come over here" Our chairs were maybe a foot and a half apart. I start to jokingly scoot over but then stop, "Ah, I'm too lazy." She leaned casually back in her chair, looking gorgeous in the way only she can. "I'm too lazy, too." We laughed. "So we're both too lazy. Guess it's not gonna happen then." I pretended to be pretending to be disappointed. "When we actually have to move... when the bell rings... then we will." "Alright then!" Laughed laughed, laughed. We were joking though. It didn't happen. *sigh*

I remember the hallway, both of us pretending to complain because K (straight) wouldn't let us grab her boobs. But I don't remember when we were talking about it in class. Meh.

Then the rest of the day, absolutely all of it, is pashewey-kerfluffle in my brain. Something must've been on that video I'm told we watched in Social Studies that disturbed me. It was about India. What could be a disturbing and graphic image about India? Meh. Maybe its also due to me being tired.

Or maybe it's hard for me to think because as I type this I'm talking to her on MSN. Yes that's right. She's on my MSN now! XD yay!