My grandmother is dying. . .
I just saw her today. I had no idea she had fallen so sickly. Lymphoma cancer is such a grim reaper. She lies around in bed almost all day, hooked up to an oxygen machine. She's a shell of her former self. She used to be so vibrant, now all the technicolor rainbows her aura distributed so magnificently over the earth are gone. I want to cry, but I can't. And I don't know why. I feel like I'm dying with her.
I want to laugh
I want to cry
I want to live
I want to die
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Hey man...
Yesterday I visited my 102 year old great-grandmother and had my poor little mind totally blown.
She touched my face and told me I was beautiful and asked why God doesn't want her. She can't sleep or see or hear or walk but she's alive. It was amazing and shocking and terrifying and beautiful and I have no idea how to talk about it. I don't even know how to think about it.
I'm sorry about your grandmother.
Did they love you or what?
I am very sorry about your gr
I am very sorry about your great granmother. Losing a loved one is especially hard, because it feels like you are losing a part of yourself.
"What is the purpose of life? It is to create our own purpose."
Dear Ghosba...
It seems that you are going through a really rough time. I'm really sorry, obviously, there's not much I can do but I'm here to chat. If you got AIM yet:
bxexaxuxmxexcx1990 (take out the x's)
Feel well, things will get better soon, dear. If this is the time, then that means that it is time for you to accept it.
it seems so out of context/in that gaudy apartment context
Check
your mailbox.
it seems so out of context/inthat gaudy apartment context
i feel your pain
all i could do was cry when my grandfather died of a massive heart attack and his lungs filled with fluid. i am so sorry that you have to go through this. don't worry everything will get better. just give it time. if you ever need me, im here for support along with the rest of us.
*is not life so fucking great, or is it just mine. Sarcastically said.*
*kisses*