It was snowing hard as I waited for Sara. Although I was freezing cold, and being blinded by the fucking blizzard I was in, I still stood there. I had said I would meet her there so I would. And maybe she would feel sorry for my gloveless hands again.
But last time that had happened it had almost immediately led to us having sex. Or almost having sex. Not that that was a bd thing necessarily, but I thought I was over that. I thought I had changed. I loved being with Sara, but moving so fast reminded me of who I used to be, and I didn’t like that. Did that mean I wasn’t ready for sleeping with Sara?
God Parker, you can be so fucking annoying, I thought. The one person you might actually have true feelings for and she’s the one you decide to be timid with? You were never slow to jump in the sack before…Stop it! I couldn’t take all the voices in my head, voices of my past. I didn’t want to think about things, I just wanted to be with Sara. When I was with her I didn’t have to think about things.
Just then she pulled up in her car and parked in an empty spot. She got out and squinted in my direction through the thick falling curtain of snow. I thought I saw her shake her head, then she jogged towards me.
When she reached me she asked, “Do you want to go inside? It’s freezing out here!