Er, So since this is an introductional first journal entry. I suppose I'll say something of the sort.
Hi, I first came out to two good friends of mine who I trust dearly around november I think. Of 2004. Well they took it well. None of my friends really care all too much. They are more careful about what they say about gay people and using it as a derrogetory(Sp) comment. Although on occasion I get into a fight with one about it.
However, these guys are my best friends. I have other friends too, girl friends. (Just Friends).
Almost everyone knows. Although only two know Im actually a lesbian. The girls...dont. For good reason. Because I'd rather not have em getting any more suspicious than they already are.
I will be 15 in september. We are all around the same age, Except for one of us, who's going to be 17 in April. Im the oldest of the girls. Its kind of odd.
My mom and I are completely agaisnt smoking. She and my dad both know of my Orientation.
She recently found outthat my two best guy friends were smoking it. Well I never agreed with their choice, told them to stop and the like. But I guess they didn't care enough. I feel bad for them, one of them( the older one). He has a pilot's license. He can fly small planes. He doesn't seem to realize that they could take it away if they did a drug test.
Well I already wasn't allowed to hang out with one of their uncles. Because they smoked,drank and were pretty much just assholes. One of em was trying to get me to do stuff. Not like smoking, because everyone knows im agaisnt it. But he was older than me, and a loser. So my mom permitted me from seeing them. I don't blame her either.
But now, that my best friends have gotten into smoking and such. I am very angry with them. My mom doesn't want me to see them that much. When I told them.
They just didnt seem to get how annoyed I was. If I didnt have to go to work today. I would call him. But perhaps tommarow or later tonight.
I live in a pretty safe enviroment for gays/lesbians. Its a little town with tons of hippies and such. Two small movie theatres. I work in a little Organic food store.
Sometimes I think that one of my friends wish I wasn't this way. But I guess its understandable. Considering she is my best friend and is either terrified of me liking her. Or terrified she will become this way too.
Er, Okay so this is a pretty long sorta introductionous thing.
Rayven is an online persona, A roleplay charecter and a muse. Incase you were wondering.