I feel imprisoned. It's all my fault. Have been flunking out at school so now the phones, the cellphone and the net have been taken from me.

I realised all my problems spring from a lack of self-esteem. I don't believe in myself.

I'm so scared that my relationship with my girlfriend will fail - again, I don't believe in myself. I'm so scared of going away in case I lose her.

I'm too much of a bleeding perfectionist and I'm so afraid of everything. Even being myself, or getting resposible. I swear I couldn't drive because a part of me was too afraid to - I didn't want the resposiblity. But maybe I need to stop holding on so tightly and realise what I want, and stop apologising.