The sun was out and there was no wind, taking a bit of the harshness away from the winter day. The snow actually looked kinda pretty as it glinted in the sun. I waited across the street. Sara had said she was going to pick me up in front of my building and if I wanted a ride I should take it. Well, I did want a ride, but then I didn’t. What had happened the night before was on my mind all day. I needed time to think before she came.
One thing I couldn’t shake off was the way I had felt last night. For the first time in a long time I had felt happy. Like truly happy. I wasn’t worried about anything, except pleasing Sara, and I was enjoying myself. Being with Sara it just came so naturally. Nothing is that good and comes that fast though, there has to be a catch. But I couldn’t think of anything. I couldn’t think of anything Sara wanted from me, I couldn’t think of how things could go wrong from me associating with her. I couldn’t think of anything bad that could happen. Well, maybe one thing.
When I got into college I had vowed to start over. No more drugs, no more gangs, no more alcohol, no more being careless, and no more bad relationships. I wouldn’t depend on anybody for anything, because that had gotten me nowhere in the past. I was going to be strong, independent and smart. And I didn’t want anyone to know about my past. I wanted to start my life anew once I was able to get out of my old one.
The thing was, Sara had caught a glimpse of something last night. First, I was careless and showed her the vending machine I had jacked. That alone showed some stuff about me. Then later she could tell something through my eyes. I didn’t quite know what she found out, but there was some sort of recognition from her when I tried to pull my gaze away. I was kind of nervous of what she had seen. And if she would ask me about it if I got a ride.
Just as I thought that I saw her car pull in front of the building. I checked the big clock down the street, there was still fifteen more minutes until she was supposed to come. She paused in front of the building, then drove further to the nearest parking spot. She parralled, then shut off the car. Then she started it again, then she shut it off. Then she just sat there, looking straight ahead. Finally she got out of the car and headed towards the steps. She started walking up them, then stopped, started back down, then back up. I couldn’t help but chuckle to myself, what was going on? She looked so funny just wandering back and forth, like she couldn’t make up her mind. Eventually she just went back to the car and sat in it. She didn’t even turn it on.
Once again, she opened her car door and got out. This time as she started to walk toward the building she saw me across the street. She paused for a moment, as if she wasn’t quite sure it was me. Her golden hair was down around her shoulders, and I saw it sparkle magically in the sunlight. When I knew she recognized me, she still just kind of stood there. Finally, she started to walk towards me. With each step she took, my heart began to race.