I HAVE DECIDED I AM GOING TO USE THIS TO THINK, VENT,
RANT, AND MAYBE CRY.
FEW THINGS YOU MIGHT NEED TO KNOW IF YOU CARE TO READ ON
I AM FEMALE, 40,PRETTY BUT OVERWEIGHT DONT LOOK
MY AGE MOST SAY I LOOK LIKE A YOUNG 30ISH
SINGLE PARENT OF 2 TEENAGERS A FRESHMAN FEMALE
AND SENIOR MALE. WE LIVE IN A MOBLIE HOME,
WE ARE NOT TRAILER TRASH AS IS THE POPULAR TERM.
I MAKE A GOOD LIVING BUT STILL BELOW THE POVERTY LEVEL
EVEN THOUGH I HAVE A (COUNTY) GOVERMENT JOB
MY LIFE CONSISTS OF KIDS RUNNING CRAZY AND SLEEP.
MY OLDEST IS A GREAT KID STUBBURN AND LAZY.
WILL NOT SEE OR TALK TO THEIR FATHER
MY YOUNGEST IS WONDERFUL OUTGOING, MOUTHY, FULL OF LIFE
WANTS HER :DADDY: TO LOVE HER BUT
ISNT SURE SHE EVEN LIKES HIM, BUT IS AFRAID TO HURT HIM
HOW THE VEIWS BECAME SO DIFFERENT IS BEYOND ME.
I DONT AND HAVENT SPOKE BAD ABOUT HIM TO THEM
BUT I DONT SUGAR COAT THINGS EITHER THEY KNOW
IF YOU ASK I WILL TELL YOU LIKE IT IS STRIAGHT AND BLUNT
I AM THE YOUNGEST OF 7 AND
DONT SEE MY SISTERS OR BROTHERS MUCH,BY MY CHOICE.
SOMEWHERE IN THE LAST 40 YEARS THEY HAVE ALL BECAME
A TOXIC RELATIONSHIP TO ME. IT IS PROBABLY ME
BUT I FEEL DIFFERENT, THEY SEEM TO OVERLOOK ME
AND HOW HARD I HAVE WORKED TO GET WHERE I AM
I DONT BORROW OR TAKE MONEY. I GET BY ON MY OWN
I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN THIS WAY FROM DAY 1 OF SINGLE
PARENTHOOD TILL THIS DAY 13 YEARS LATER AND WILL CONTINUE
TO BE LIKE THIS. THEY ALL SEEM TO FORGET TO INVITE ME
OR CALL ME I GAVE UP BEING THE "TRYING" TO TALK ONE.
I REALLY LOVE THEM I JUST SENT PICTURES TO 2 OF THEM
(THEY LIVE WITHIN 20 MINUTES OF ME) THESES WERE
OF THEM AND OTHER FAMILY MEMBERS.
THE ONE I AS CLOSEST TO FOR YEARS DROPPED ME
LIKE A HOT POTATO WHEN SHE BEGAIN TO LOSE WEIGHT
I ASSUME THAT WAS BECAUSE SHE IS NOW ASHAMED BY ME
I AM NOT GROSSLY OVER WEIGHT MIND YOU I AM A SIZE 16.
I ENCOURAGED HER ALL THE WAY AND WHEN I
STARTED TO LOSE WEIGHT SHE DIDNT EVEN BOTHER TO ASK,
FORGET I CALLED EVERY WEEK TO SEE HOW SHE WAS DOING.
AND BRAGGED ABOUT HER TO EVERYONE. THEN WHEN I COULDNT
AFFORD TO SEND MONEY TO OUR DRUNK SISTER TO COME IN
STATE TO BE AT A 50TH REWEDDING SHE JUST CUT ME OFF.
OK I DID GET MAD WHEN THEY ASKED I CANT BELEIIVE THEY
DONT REALIZE I JUST CANT GIVE UP 100.00 TO HELP A ABUSER
WHEN I HAVE TO PUT OUT THE SAME MONEY THEY DO
FOR THE CLOTHES AND GIFTS THEY ARE MARRIED WITH
GROWN KIDS ONLY ONE A HAS A TEENAGER, THEY (HUSBANDS TOO)
MAKE GREAT MONEY (GUESSING LOW AT 100,00.00 A YEAR),
(THEY WORK HARD FOR IT) BUT I BARELY MAKE 30,000.
36000. WITH CHILD SUPPORT (WHEN I GET IT)
SO THEY DROPPED ME.
SO I LIVE MY LIFE/NO LIFE
PRETTY MUCH ALONE. 2 BOYFRIENDS IN 13 YEARS NEVER
BROUGHT MAN IN AND OUT OF MY HOME NO WHORE OR FREEBEE
HERE. I DIDNT AND DONT WANT MY KIDS TO THINK
MULTI PARTNERS IS RIGHT. DONT PARTY OR DRINK
JUST A PLAIN SIMPLE MOM OH I SMOKE CIGS
AND GUESS I EAT TO MUCH. MY KIDS ARE IN GREAT SHAPE
THAY ARE ACTIVE AND 6'2 AND 174LBS AND
4'10 82LBS (YES SHE IS 14 TINY LITTLE THING)..
I DO FOR THEM I GUESS I DONT HAVE A LIFE BY CHOICE.
AFRAID TO PUT MYSELF OUT THERE. I HAVE NO LIFE.....