Hello everyone. I'm kind of new to oasis, so I don't really know if this is really the right place to put this, but I'm hoping that someone can help me. =)
Lately I've been really confused about whether I'm straight or gay. At first I decided that I was gay, but then lately I'm not so sure... -.-" even though I think I'm probably gay. I have crushes on guys and I think that guys are more attractive than girls (definitely, as I don't find myself staring and any of girl's parts, but I find myself staring at guy's faces and arms and legs often =D). But I dunno if my crushes are really crushes.. if you know what I mean!! I usually don't really know the people I'm having a crush on, but I keep trying to see them (like I try to look in a restaurant and see if I can find them =D). And I think about them a lot. I don't know if other crushes are supposed to be like this though XD.
But then what makes me confused is that I don't know if I can have sex with a guy XD. Like if I think of having (anal) sex with a guy, I sort of feel that I wouldn't really want to do it (it seems a little gross to me...) . Maybe this has something to do with the fact that I'm still only 15 years old, but it's really confusing me. On a side note, I don't think I can really have sex with a girl either because every time I think of a girl's private parts, I sort of start wanting to vomit... Besides, I don't know if I can really have a relationship with a guy.
I know I am probably gay =). But if some people can really confirm this, it can stop my confusion and make me happier!! =) thanks!