i sat don on the white sheet emiko ha dlaid out for us. the wet grass crunchin as i did it. the cld of the night settled into us as we sat in careful silence. there was emotion between us. one so strong i hurt. i longed to touch her to wrap my arm around her and give into my desire. she long o let me. but things get in th eway of love. her boyfriedn sat down in between us, severing our connection. i longed for tat sweet ache of wanting, needing that i knew so well. it was the fourth of july and the night was col dbut i shivered for a different reason, i was col din spirit now.the fireworks as usal were delayed an dwe three sat there in awkward silence. emikos boyfriedn saw beach buddies of his from far away an dran off to say hi. he left us to not knowing what we would do. what i would do. i inched closer to emiko so afriad she would pull back. but sh edidnt she meet my wanting gaze an dmatched it with her own, but somthing lrked there. somthing that threatened to break us apart. we heard th ehiss of a fire work being launche dinto th eair an dknew it was time. she knew it was time fo rher boyfriedn to com eback an dlooked away nervously. i knew it was time to take a chance . as the of the firework lit up th esky i pressed our lips together which wa snot hard as we were already so close. if the ache was already powerful with out us touching it tore me apart from the inside out. it was a glorious pain. the sweet taste of giving in, succumbing to your own desires is truly the sweetest sin. i pulled back with a smile of satisfaction on my face, and in her eyes i saw happiness. but then th edarkness that lurked in there passed in fron t of us. he rface grew cold. she gaze dacross th efeil dat her boyfriend.
"i cant do this, not to him, not to me"she whispered
"what about me?" i answered back but sh eonly shook her head, sh estoopd up an dtook off after her with a fake smil eplastered on he rface. i sat there along that cold summe rnight and waited for her to come back.