I have been very confused about my sexuality lately. I have liked guys for most of my life, but I have always had a great admiration for girls as well. In the past few weeks, I've gotten to know two girls who I think I might be attracted to. When I heard of one girl having a fling with a girl from another school, I feel jealous, and wonder if she'd ever like someone like me.
It's really strange, because I feel myself being more emotionally loving to girls, even attracted to them physically, but more physically attracted to guys in terms of doing sexual stuff. And yet, I don't always get much out of kissing guys, or talking with them, because I'm always tense. I don't feel the emotional connection I get with girls. Always, I've felt this masculine need to protect girls, to hold them, and even give them kisses on the cheek or the top of the head when they are upset. I want them to be treated right, and I have no doubt in my mind that I could make them feel really special.
I am really confused. And when I told my mother this, she just blew up in my face, not knowing what to think. What can I do? What do I call myself?
Peace and God Bless;