Just soaking there in the tub
i decide to just go under the water for a bit
and while im in it i think to myself what if i stay down here
and my life flashes before my eyes
All the people i have loved and hated are looking at me
and as i look at my mothers eyes, i surface.

I lay in bed
Darkness is all i see
im not longer afraid of what hides behind the closet
but what hides behind my heart
the many feelings i try to ignore
I admit, i hold back at times. But its for the better
i no longer wait for it to happen but look towards the future, because it leads to less heartache? maybe...

Rule ; If its yellow let it mellow
if its brown flush it down - Meet the fockers

Night loves.