ugh...so fucking confused. I mean, I like my boyfriend...right? but I never have that squishy "ilovehim" feeling anymore and more and more of my thoughts are focused on GIRLS, and sometimes its not a specific girl, just girls in general.

for example, my dream last ight was about this husband and wife in a house that I was visiting with my english teacher. and i'm going into te bathroom to chage and the wife comes in and totally starts hitting on me, and we're like, making out by the time I woke up. and then another dream was where someone wrote my name on a piece of paper and drew an arrow that said "fag" on it and for some reason I didn't do anything, didn't argue or get embarrassed or anything.
*sigh* I don't know what I'm expecting to find out from writing all this, but whatever. maybe later this week I'll postup a section of a story that I wrote, its kind of weird, but whatever.