Gahhh!!! Ok, I know I just posted earlier, but this is kind of an unplanned, crazy, jumping-up-and-down, I don't know what to feel type of situation.
I talked to my girlfriend tonight over the phone. This was the first time I'd talked to her in over a month. Just the other day I wrote in my journal (real one, not online) that I've pretty much come to the conclusion that our relationship is over. But then I talked to her tonight and I felt happy and all the doubts seemed to shove themselves to the back of my mind. She had a legitimate reason for not contacting me; she didn't have my phone number, and had lost my address. (Granted...she wasn't smart for losing my address, but I can see how it would've happened.) She'd been down at some property her dad owned for awhile, and then was out of state working for a bit.
I don't know. I feel like I'm almost being wimpy or something like that since I'm feeling like everything's okay after one 30 min. phone call. However, I don't want to break up with her for the sheer reason that we're in a super-long-distance relationship. That in of itself is going to make things harder. I think maybe I should just hang in there until I get back to the States...then I can really look at things and hopefully see her at Christmas time, and see how things go. I do love her...I really do. Just hearing her voice makes me smile. I don't want to throw it all away because of the distance, which is something very temporary.
:: shakes head ::
I'd better go to bed now before I really start thinking too much.