My Girlfriend broke up with me like 2 weeks ago, the night before the first day of school. It was pretty bitchy. I'm just really confused about the entire thing. She broke up with me b/c it was getting weird and I agreed with her about that, but also because I'm one of her best friends and she thought if we continued that it would just be worse when we broke up in the future. At first I was all fine and good with this, we still hung out all the time. But then I began to freak out everytime I was with her and other people, all these memories would begin to come back to em and i would begin to cry infront of all my friends. It still hurts a lot and at frist I really didn't think I was going to feel this pain, but I do. and i spend all my time with her and she friends with all my friends. A part of me still just thinks we are together, but another part of me knows we arn't. and I just don't know how i can ever get over her if we are always together and practically going out. She's the only person I have ever loved, and I just feel so addicted to her, like i can't stand to not be with her, but when I'm with her a lot of the time I'm miserable.
I hate how now the only times I'm not stressin' about her is when i'm stoned out of my mind. I just hate loving her, I wish I could just end it all, make all the felings disappear, but I can't. I wish I didn't have to smoke weed to forget about her, eventhough smoking reminds me of her. I'm just so confused and hurt right now. Any advice would be really helpful. Thanks for listening whoever you are, Thank You.