Gah!!! As if a long distance relationship with someone who's hard to get in touch with isn't hard enough...I have to go and realize I'm attracted to one of the girls living in my lodge (I'll just refer to her as Michelle). She and I have become really good friends. I'm not sure if I'm really attracted to her or if I only feel like I'm attracted to her because of the fact that I'm missing my girlfriend right now and could use some comfort. I'm not the type who would ever cheat on my girlfriend, but just the fact that I'm feeling this attraction to Michelle is fucking with my head and my emotions.

There was this huge back to Uni party last Friday night and I'd had a bit to drink. The girl here, Michelle, had been dancing with various guys that night and at one point had pulled me over to dance with them. I ended up with my hands on her hips and her sides as she was dancing with one of the guys... I just can't get it out of my head how nice that felt.... (It really was an innocent touch though, really...nothing naughty!)

To make everything even stranger, I've had dreams two nights in a row about me cheating on my girlfried. One of the dreams was with some woman who I don't know in real life, and the other was about one of the other girls in the lodge here (Not Michelle).

*sigh* Life is never easy. :-P