its that maybe 'she' didn't say no, but never said yes. maybe it was just a game kids play? or maybe now that u understand what was happening, and how young u were, that it affects u in a way that a game never should. there is no clear dictionary definition for it, im sure. 'she never stopped it, she never said no'- u never should have needed to. maybe it was all innocent, i mean hell u were just kids, but the facts that it does haunt u, means that to u, theres nothing so innocent about it. which is all that matters. but u should know that although ur past is an important part of u, it is not all of u. and it is not necessarily a bad thing. u shouldnt go thinking what ifs..:) huggles
-bi the way of kerith-